Marcusmaxmus's Blog

Hey everyone, I am still alive and kicking. I just have been very negligent in posting due to the fact that I do not have internet at home and can only post when I'm at my dad's house. However, everything is going well and life is looking up! especially in the love department. I now have a boyfriend and things are running smoothly. we have been together about a month now and I pray for a long time to come. Work is work, tedious and unforgiving as always. opportunities arise for promotion but I personally do not think that i will get to fill those shoes. especially since I make decisions for my people over the companies needs. Why? Because the people make the business what it is. I am very unsure how much longer I will be at Subway, things seem to be getting further downhill and more of a corporate conglomeration verses being about the people (customers and employees). I know that out of all honor I would have done everything I could to maintain my employees to the best of my ab...

All I have to say is that life loves throwing curve balls. Right now I have "eyes" for only one person, and they well they have eyes for me, but have too much going on. This sucks and makes my life terribly difficult. But if there's even a remote chance it will be worth it. All my suggestions that life is easier with someone else, someone who cares and will support them have so far to my knowledge not been accepted because of the living situation he is in.. :( Oh well such as life is, I am sure we will figure it out and hopefully for the better, like i heard on the radio today. Life in limbo or always waiting is a life without poetry and true love. Gotta take risks to make a full life worth living is all I have to add. :) Love ya guys and keep on reading and posting!

So as a distraction my good buddy is getting me a new game to try out. SWOTR I think the games acronym is lol. We will see what its like. He says ill probably like it better then WoW. Again we will see. :P But I will play it for a while just to give it a fair shake. But ultimately it is because he wants to dork around on the game with someone else.. ::P Now for life stuffs.... can't say theres much going on, sadly there is a lot less going on then I want... :( EDIT: I was wrong its SWTOR :D

Hey everyone! So life is decently good right now. Have a guy I'm really liking, who spends time with me. He's a real person. Never thought I would find anything but plastic people here in cali. A bit of bad news is that I found out my blood pressure is a bit high. It was 132/70 this morning. No more caffein for me :(. Problem is that I love my monsters LOL! Ooh well. Had a shot and got some tests run in the STD department just as a regular thing. Thank God that I am HIV- I really feel for people who are not. Don't have any other test results back yet, but I'm sure everything will be ok. :) Can't say I get some very often at all. Ill post more results when I get them. Anyhow, hope everyone is doing well! Love y'all.

So, life moves forward once again. Let's start with a finalization of the last posting I did. I was not successful in quitting, although I did slow down for a while. However, I am back up to a pack a day. I ended up being allergic to my chosen method of using an E-Cigarette. Maybe, in a few weeks to a month I can give it a try again. Until then I will still smell like an ashtray. New stuffs: So, I have happily met this guy. He is a major stud and has a personality that clicks really well with mine. Unfortunately, I don't think anything will come of it. :( I hope he wants it to go somewhere, maybe something long term, but it is just a hope. everyday he does conflicting things as far as I can tell as to what he wants. the details are: 1. He likes both women and men.  He has had both relationship wise. 2. He still wants to marry girl. As, well he cannot tolerate them right now either. 3. He texts me everyday. 4. He says things I do are sweet. 5. We do spend a lot of time...

So here is something new and hopefully exciting! I have choosen to quit smoking! My meathod? Well, I bought one of those electric ciggarettes from the store that are tobbacco, smoke, nicotine, and tar free. It does produce a resemblance of smoke and it maintains the illusion of actually smoking. I am excited to possibly be quitting. If I quit I will be very happy with myself, especially after having been smoking for 14 years. Ooh and Foxy, I will post nudie pics of ciggarettes. :P haha! Thanks for following guys! Love you all!

Hey everyone! So let us see, it has been 12 days since my last blog. What to go on about this time. Well, I have recently been talking to a handsome guy from New Mexico. He seems very nice and has a handle on his life as far as I can tell. I do not want to move too fast and at this point we are just texting. I am however excited to get to know him better. He has a car that runs, a job, and is taking care of himself on a financial level. All things you would expect without thought from most people. Unfortunately, most people can't even take care of two of those items simultaneously. Sad how this world has turned out and you have to make those requirements for dating. Like I always say, "It is what it is." I am hoping to someday meet him and maybe form something worth while. I am tired of being alone and fighting the battle of life by myself. But as life moves on, I have to admit, I find it easier to be alone for the simple fact as I get older I loath drama more and more e...

Sigh, so life moves forward. A new found afriend deploys tomorrow, I hope he sees this post and says hi sometime. :) So, no changes in the love dept. yet. Though I hope for something soon. I don't know, what I want to say lol, I just felt the need to post. Hopefully this weekend will be good and very busy at work, I can't stand these slow days. On a good note, I did figure out how to get the proper punctuation when blogging from my phone. :) Well, not meaning to keep this post short, but other then what is already listed, there is not anything new. Keep well my readers and post anything and everything!

Soo, I want to post today. However, I am not sure what to talk about... I mean theres probably something interesting out there to talk about like how I have been talking to a different really cool guy from Camp Pendleton. Not sure whats there but definitely a friendship. :) it would be nice to have even just that out here in Cali. I don't know, sometimes I wish I could read minds, then I would know who to trust, but then no one ould trust me because even I do not trust my thoughts. Anyway, why don't we make this blog a discussion. But for it to work YOU the reader has to respond and reply to comments and the blog. So let us decide on a topic. Why don't we talk about relationships. Here is a list of relationship styles and where I believe they belong in the relationship continum. Acquaintance- this is a person whom you have met and spent very little time with or have not yet made and emotional or spiritual connection with. Outer Circle of Friends - People you have made...

So, this last weekend I went to Santa Claira to visit a friend. Nice area, it is. didn't do much but did hit up the Westfield mall there. Very nice mall. Well, dunno what else to talk about, hmmm how about BOYS! lol! Ok so there's a guy I really really like. His name starts with a D. Now I cannot remember for the life on me if he has the address to my blog. :P If he does, oh well. I cannot decide what to do. I am scared to talk to him about how I feel, and what I want to do. He is very smart and probably already knows something is up. But, I  keep dogging the subject because I don't want to be rejected anymore. Honestly, thats about the jist of my life for people I have like on those intimate terms, and that is rejection. I rarely find someone who accepts me for who I am and even more rarely do I find someone who Loves me for who I am. I do not know how he feels, I can't say I am in love with him yet. I can say however that it would not be hard to get there. I mean all...

Ok, so we all have them, embarrassing moments that is. This one is an irony, I was on Facebook and posted something like: oh my gosh i just found a white hair on my chest. Two days later, I find my boss on Facebook and invite her to be my friend. What does she do? She likes that status update, rotfl. I was like really, leave it to your boss to pick an embarrassing moment to like haha. Mild but entertaining. :P

Oh my dearest how I miss you! Lol, I have to apologize to my readers, I have not been diligent in posting for a long time. :( I no longer live somewhere where I have internet access, so that makes things all the more difficult. If I havn't touched base with you recently outside of the blog I also apologize. :( Anyhow, I hope everyone is doing well, I Know I am! I got enough money back from my taxes to pay off my car, and two other major debts I have! It totally excites me. However, that is about all the news I have.. Hope everyone is doing well, post below so I know your alive. :) Love ya guys.