Marcusmaxmus's Blog

Hey my Aussie brother, happy birthday! Hope everything was fun.

Love, in Latin is not one single word. In Latin love is at least 8 different words all meaning different types of love or love relationships. In the English language all we have is love to describe those thirteen types. You have love for your spouse / significant other, for your family, for your kids, for friends, for animals, for passions, for inanimate objects, and even more. I believe that using one word to describe soooo much has depreciated the use and value of the word and made it harder to use. How often does one man say I love you to another out of friendship for fear of pushing their friend away? Why else would we be skeptical of love or even fear it? This is dis-including people who have been abused with false love. Why is it an unspeakable thing outside of the family unit? It is almost abhorrently appalling to declare love for another in public. How can we let ourselves be pressured into this corrosive way of living. I have friends I...

Bah, I'm so frustrated right now. How can you love someone then have them tell you they used you and still love them. I don't believe they used me because well I.D.K. Meh, i can't think I'm so damned frustrated. It seems that maybe i should eject them from my life? No, that cannot be the answer. They are definitely on a piss me off on purpose role, and then they just blow it off. Grow the hell up. Arrgh, I have more but I don't. I just wanna beat them and then I just wanna cry as well. They blocked me, probably on purpose, from even communicating with them on a certain webpage. Guess I'm not good enough for them, eh. Well, whatever no one reads these anyway.

If, there is one thing I have noticed in the past two years it's that trying to get a job and maintain that job is neigh impossible. So, I have decided to say what I'm doing here. First, I'm filling out one to two apps a day. Secondly, I'm checking websites for potential leads everyday as well. I am using resources such as monster.com, craigslist.com and whatnot. Currently, I have over fifteen apps out, normally i would have a job within 3 days of not having one. So, with that I'm very frustrated on not having one already, especially with it having been almost two weeks already. I don't know what else to say but yay for my first blog. lol.