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So I'm trying to work things out emotionally with the breakup. It is going ok, I can function a bit better and work seems to be getting easier. I am trying to get out more and do more, but everywhere I go something reminds me of him. I am trying to move forward and yet still have hope that maybe he will decide it is ok to be with me. There really wasn't anything unworkable wrong with what we had, which is why it hurts so much. I mean it has been about two weeks or rather it was yesterday, and I am still hurting really bad. Most of the time I'm much further in the stage by now. I in now way intend to discredit him, we did everything the right way and it felt really right when I was with him. I know my last post was rather emotional and I am further along in the process and able to talk about it with less emotion although I still feel very very strongly for him. I still have the urge to call him and text him and say I love you to him. I still want to tell him how my days have been going and to see what he thinks, is thinking about, and if he is ok. I am trying to not text him or call or go see him and that's the hardest thing to do. I love him and probably always will to some degree. I hope he reads this as he has the address because I know he wants to know how everything is going. I have a ton of crap in my life right now and the hardest thing is me trying to let him go. But as they say, if you let something you love go and it comes back then it was meant to be. I pray that we are meant to be. I pray that he can understand that I need him and not because of anything but who he is. He is the type of man that I have been looking for for a long long time. I hope years don't go by and things get all screwy. I don't know anymore. I guess I will end on that note.
Take Care
Kriz
So I'm trying to work things out emotionally with the breakup. It is going ok, I can function a bit better and work seems to be getting easier. I am trying to get out more and do more, but everywhere I go something reminds me of him. I am trying to move forward and yet still have hope that maybe he will decide it is ok to be with me. There really wasn't anything unworkable wrong with what we had, which is why it hurts so much. I mean it has been about two weeks or rather it was yesterday, and I am still hurting really bad. Most of the time I'm much further in the stage by now. I in now way intend to discredit him, we did everything the right way and it felt really right when I was with him. I know my last post was rather emotional and I am further along in the process and able to talk about it with less emotion although I still feel very very strongly for him. I still have the urge to call him and text him and say I love you to him. I still want to tell him how my days have been going and to see what he thinks, is thinking about, and if he is ok. I am trying to not text him or call or go see him and that's the hardest thing to do. I love him and probably always will to some degree. I hope he reads this as he has the address because I know he wants to know how everything is going. I have a ton of crap in my life right now and the hardest thing is me trying to let him go. But as they say, if you let something you love go and it comes back then it was meant to be. I pray that we are meant to be. I pray that he can understand that I need him and not because of anything but who he is. He is the type of man that I have been looking for for a long long time. I hope years don't go by and things get all screwy. I don't know anymore. I guess I will end on that note.
Take Care
Kriz
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