Non-Smoking Day #1 10/31/10

So far I have made it not a single smoke today. tried to help someone move today and went over there twice when they said to. They never showed, I thought that was kinda rude. The person I "love" was being an ass again today, I'm so sick of it. I mean ok, I get it I have three habits he doesn't like, I'm not about to list them sorry lol. And no they are not the greatest habits, but honestly the biggest peeve i have is that he doesn't see people for more then just their bad habits most of the time. He will never date a smoker, and i was lucky. He won't even touch a drug addict (i don't blame him). And if you drink you might as well have leprosy. Heh leave it to me to fall for the pig headed ones. :( I wish he would read these with an open mind, but as well he is still young and stupid. Though why I have to pay for that is beyond me completely. I was young and dumb but I don't think I screwed with someone like this. I honestly do not know. I love him and that's what I choose to see. I forgive him for the bad and sometimes revolting way he treats me and i forgive him him for anything that hurts me. If any of you who read these know who I am talking about, never ever divulge his name here. Thanks :)


The None Smoker (hopefully)

Comments

Anonymous said…
Because I care I'm going to say this...you are forgiving him for too much. The revolting way he treats you? The things that hurt you? No, this is toxic to you and you need to understand that you are worth more. Do NOT allow yourself to be treated like that. Until you realize your worth and truly understand that you are not deserving of this, you will find these types of relationships. You have to be happy with who you are and not let others tear you down.
02 November, 2010 10:22
Marcusmaxmus said…
Yeah I know and greatly appreciate the help. I had already come to that conclusion its just hard. If you knew some more of the history it would be easier to understand. I have not forgotten what was nor will I ever, because it was wonderful. But neither will I hold myself back. I have not been "waiting for him" for many many months now. It is just hard when no one in the world cares to notice you. If that makes sense.
04 November, 2010 18:24
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