Marcusmaxmus's Blog

Well, someone finally decided to hire me. Took long enough. I start on Wednesday at 10 AM. Yay! :P

Today was a very very busy day. I Started by helping a good friend with a crochet project she was doing, much fun. :) Then I started cooking. Ooh boy was that a big thing lol. I started by washing and boiling about 8 Lbs. of potatoes, then chopping those potatoes up for potato salad. Afterward, I washed and peeled another 8 Lbs for Mashed potatoes on Christmas Eve. I had some of the first batch left after making the salad so i chopped those up for some potato soup Thursday night. Making the salad included chopping up celery and eggs (about 9) and mixing. In between cooking and peeling potatoes I cut up some eggs to make Devil Eggs. Mixing the mixture was tough they wouldn't break apart (the yolks that is). Horrid lol, but ultimately a long, but wait it isn't over. I have two loads of laundry in the washer and still have to clean the bathroom. Oh Lord save me! :P

So, I think I am going to add a tab for my short stories I have written. Thoughts? I think it will be fun to do that, then i will always have them. I have lost soo much over the years because of having things on paper rather then online somewhere.

Well, I suppose it is about time to Blog some more hence the title... This time I am bustling with interesting facts... Kind of. Well, I have found someone who is very very cute to flirt with.. They live in Phoenix, AZ unfortunately, but with time and money if everything goes well that can be immediately remedied. Ummmm, I am not ready to say who they are because it is still a very new thing... Kal (Niki), Foxy (James), and Fio (Tyler) send me a message, text, or talk to me on FB if you haven't figured out who yet. :P love you guys. Marcusmaxmus :) (Chris)

So i just started this new game on Facebook. It is called CityVille . I have not yet decided if it is worth my time but it does have a major annoyance. After you use up all your energy it flags you with a request to visit friends or buy more energy. It messes up my mojo when trying to get extra bonuses which you can do if you harvest and collect rent and whatnot fast. Overall, I will give it a 4 star rating but only with the curve that it is the type of game it is. It is put out by the makers of FarmVille . I am very iffy as to whether or not to trust the programming because of all the inital issues with hacking that FarmVille was having issues with. So far it has been smooth sailing hacker wise.

Well, not really much to say, just being bored on a Monday. I have to run and get some quarters for laundry today, probably going to do that really soon as we have several loads. Nothing new on the job front still waiting, I do hope something comes through really soon, this waiting is antagonizing. Well, with that said i think I'll tottle off. G'day everyone. :)

My internet has been out for a week, hence why i have not made any posts. Sorry guys. Anyhow , I may have a job really soon... :) This coming week I hope. :)

So today was very very busy for me..... I spent 6 hours in the kitchen preparing our turkey day meal, got all the desserts done and a few of the sides.. Doing well. Also, spent 3 hours at the doc's office with my grandmother for a regular check up. All's well that I am aware of. :) And early this morning i spent another three hours waiting in line with my mother for food at a food drive... ooh fun, I'll tell ya though my back is yelling at me something fierce right now. :( Anyhow, love you all, and have a great Thanksgiving! Probably will not post tomorrow as it is a holiday.....

AS of right now I am still jobless. I was hoping to have heard back from Subway by now. However tomorrow, I will send them an email as it has been five days since my last interview. I am hoping to get an immediate response as has been their custom so far. Life has not really been exciting besides playing Evony and Lords Online . If anyone wishes to join me I recommend Lords Online . On Evony I am on server na26 (Falcata). On Lords Online I am on World_6.

On my Blogspot , I now have a stats page. :) It tells me where, what browser, and operating system people are using to look at my blog. I have one question: Who is using Safari as a Browser? I am very glad to see people are not using IE. Whew! LOL. It says people From the US, AU, and Canada have viewed my blog. Yay! Love you guys, keep on viewing, and if you have not yet please follow under followers so I can maybe do something specifically appealing to my audience. I know two people have not viewed my blog 380 times in less then two months. But sadly out of 280 views I have only 15 comments, sad day... Ooh, and please note the reaction section at the end of each blog and use it. I am going to see if I can edit it to say the word Boring as well so i know what to not post....

Ok, so it was just recently pointed out to me that I have not posted in 8 days. Since, I have a "fan" waiting, I will gladly make a new post. :) Well, quitting smoking failed but i was closer this time to quitting..... Yay and ooh crap that sucks at the same time. Anyhow, had two interviews this last week for a job with Subway. Maybe it will work out, i hope so I'm tired of having 0 cash period.... Ummm so my life is actually very bland right, or if its spiced i cannot mention it out of honor...... So someone give me a line of thought to talk about maybe?? :P

So I failed and waited till this morning to post... Oops Lol. Okay so here's the deal, I went back into Subway and talked to the store manager. He gave me the district manager's information. I called him and sent in my resume to his email. Waiting on a call back.. :) Now great news, i have had two friends whom I have not talked to in years talk tome yesterday, I am sooo excited and feel loved. :)

Life is kinda boring right now, sadly. I do like a little excitement in my world. Just not drama. I go tomorrow it ends up to talk to the manager because he had a meeting of sorts today. Hopefully I was a topic, he said he would discuss my application with the district manager... Cross your fingers for tomorrow is the day of truth..

Well. on the sixth I ended up smoking 5 smokes. Listened to my grandmother complain about how he programmed the satellite TV and what shows she missed because he was messing with it. That was the last thing I needed or wanted to deal with, it's bad enough I think about him 20 times a day and have my own issues with him. Oh well, his mom told me he made it safe to Oregon, Yay! At least that much was good, she never did reply to my text after that though. He probably told her not to. Whatever, I know that in two months he'll text me saying can you do this for me and I am going to have to say no. Not because I do not want to or because I can't do it, but because that's what he does. I love him but all he seems to do is need help if I keep saying yes I won't ever be able to move forward past his bullshit. Well that's all for now I will add more tomorrow I think.

For now life without him should be grand I say. I dropped him off at the bus depot and wow was he an ass. It started with us getting ready to leave. He asked me twice if I was ready to go. I said yeah was just waiting on him (both times), he yelled at me for not leaving right away the first time when he was still closing up his bags. Meh, after that he was giving poor directions and yelled at me for not listening to him. I told him point blank buddy you need to learn to drive and until then your directions are gonna suck ass, so don't go yelling at me for giving shitty directions. So, we get to the depot, I start to pull into the parking lot. He said why are we pulling in here?  I said well I have to wait with you till you board. He was like no your not. I said yeah I am. Your mom requested it. He got all prissy. I said you ain't got no choice your mom asked and I gave her my word, deal with it. He hasn't talked to me since, as well he put me on his fuck list on Facebook. S...

I absolutely failed yesterday. I smoked half a pack of cigarettes. I'm gonna finish the pack today and say hell with it I'm done. Screw this on and off stuff. I am a very lonely person right now, trying to figure life out. As well, I don't know what i want at all, except a most basic need....a job.

So i am thinking about going to college online. could be a very productive thing for me. i am hoping to get a degree in human resources. its gonna take awhile, probably longer then most but it should be accomplish-able in five years depending on how able i am to do the work and if i get frustrated or not.... English is gonna be my downfall. i am absolutely horrible at English classes...... ill figure it out though.

I think I am in a contest with myself to see how many friends i can piss off. Man, it isn't like i have a lot of them. Ooh well I guess. I.D.K. meh....

So far I have made it not a single smoke today. tried to help someone move today and went over there twice when they said to. They never showed, I thought that was kinda rude. The person I "love" was being an ass again today, I'm so sick of it. I mean ok, I get it I have three habits he doesn't like, I'm not about to list them sorry lol. And no they are not the greatest habits, but honestly the biggest peeve i have is that he doesn't see people for more then just their bad habits most of the time. He will never date a smoker, and i was lucky. He won't even touch a drug addict (i don't blame him). And if you drink you might as well have leprosy. Heh leave it to me to fall for the pig headed ones. :( I wish he would read these with an open mind, but as well he is still young and stupid. Though why I have to pay for that is beyond me completely. I was young and dumb but I don't think I screwed with someone like this. I honestly do not know. I love him...

Well today has been different, and yet another day of failure. I had two cigarettes today. but am gonna cut it all off tomorrow. I don't know what else to say except still looking for work. My phone bill was due today so in about fifteen days my phone will be without service.....

Okay, so now that i have a real computer i can use more often my blogs will be more proper. This is day five of not smoking. not doing as bad with the want so far today and not so bad on the i wanna beat someone front either. It is definitely not an easy challenge but i am hoping that it will allow me more freedom and availability for other things. Thank you for everyone who has been following and i hope theres more to come soon. :) The job hunt was rather ridiculous today, absolutely nothing new posted. seems to me is that I'm having no luck and ill be finding the unemployment office on Monday. If i get denied for that I'm gonna be screwed. :(

Heh so scratch the non-smoker part as I have had three smokes in the last four days. However, it's better then I did the last time. On day four I was totally smoking again. Hopefully this lasts but I still don't know if I want it too. Well, oh well, I really still have not been given a good reason to quit yet. The only reason i'll ever want to quit for is being an asshole as normal. Ooh well such is life.

It seems to me that yes i want to love and be loved. But honestly W.T.F. is the point. When it comes to matters of the heart, when I ask someone if what I feel is returned, I get an I.D.K. what do you feel? I go through and tell them how I feel then I get a no it's over. Then I have one I'm still friends, per say, with and I still love. I know that half the shit he says is crap, hes just too scared to admit he loves someone or that something other then what's socially correct could feel so right and good. Aargh, I just want to tell him to G.T.F.H. but whatever, I guess what I need is for him too understand or even attempt to understand my side. But then its all my fault to for falling in love with him in the first place. I don't want to get over him at all or ever. I also don't believe you can truly fall for a person this deeply w/o them truly feeling something in return. Talking is pointless, emails, and texting pointless. I want to know how to get him to truly...

Okay, so as of um, five pm yesterday it was decided that I don't smoke anymore. Let's see what happens. Cold turkey is how I'm doing it, but some people use patches, lozenges, or gum.

Last night was very, very interesting..... I was summoned downstairs to the lobby to talk to some cops. First things first, big city laws suck ass. With that said I basically got booked w/o the going behind bars part. Yay I'm in San Diego PD computer. For what, you say?  Well it was for letting my buddy sleep in my van. Apparently, someone called and complained an hour before he left to go to the van. They called about someone pissing in the bushes or something. He was just sitting there playing a game when they showed up. Yay for two thirty in the morning........

Hey my Aussie brother, happy birthday! Hope everything was fun.

Love, in Latin is not one single word. In Latin love is at least 8 different words all meaning different types of love or love relationships. In the English language all we have is love to describe those thirteen types. You have love for your spouse / significant other, for your family, for your kids, for friends, for animals, for passions, for inanimate objects, and even more. I believe that using one word to describe soooo much has depreciated the use and value of the word and made it harder to use. How often does one man say I love you to another out of friendship for fear of pushing their friend away? Why else would we be skeptical of love or even fear it? This is dis-including people who have been abused with false love. Why is it an unspeakable thing outside of the family unit? It is almost abhorrently appalling to declare love for another in public. How can we let ourselves be pressured into this corrosive way of living. I have friends I...

Bah, I'm so frustrated right now. How can you love someone then have them tell you they used you and still love them. I don't believe they used me because well I.D.K. Meh, i can't think I'm so damned frustrated. It seems that maybe i should eject them from my life? No, that cannot be the answer. They are definitely on a piss me off on purpose role, and then they just blow it off. Grow the hell up. Arrgh, I have more but I don't. I just wanna beat them and then I just wanna cry as well. They blocked me, probably on purpose, from even communicating with them on a certain webpage. Guess I'm not good enough for them, eh. Well, whatever no one reads these anyway.

If, there is one thing I have noticed in the past two years it's that trying to get a job and maintain that job is neigh impossible. So, I have decided to say what I'm doing here. First, I'm filling out one to two apps a day. Secondly, I'm checking websites for potential leads everyday as well. I am using resources such as monster.com, craigslist.com and whatnot. Currently, I have over fifteen apps out, normally i would have a job within 3 days of not having one. So, with that I'm very frustrated on not having one already, especially with it having been almost two weeks already. I don't know what else to say but yay for my first blog. lol.